Pennies From Heaven

There are actually things that I can do well and that I enjoy doing.

Then there are those that I can't and don't.

Among the latter is the writing of funding requests.

Not only do I have little experience doing that, I'm really bad about selling myself. It's very hard for me to present a image of myself and my research that looks good without laughing a little bit. I mean, c'mon! I can think of a billion better uses for money than giving it to me. Fix potholes, put working tech in the classrooms, teach undergrads how to write, whatever, the idea that I deserve money seems just flat out ludicrous. Now, I know that there is money set aside specifically for people like me, and that if I don't get it, someone similar to me will get it, so it might as well be me. Since, like, you know, there's no way it'll actually get disbursed to fill potholes anyway.

What this all means practically is that I am always procrastinating about putting these things together. And then I end up feeling guilty for writing recommendation requests with RUSH stamped on the top.

Sigh... Well, here goes nothing.